Enjoy the Memories without Interruptions

I'm sitting in the living room... Feeling very nostalgic.
I've been wanting to sit and look at pictures of the ex fiance and I but I haven't because every time I've had some down time my moms been home... my mom is nosey and I kind of just want to sit and look back, reflect, enjoy the memories without the interruptions of 3,000 questions and personal opinions of outsiders. (The pleasure's of living at home)

What lead to this...

I went to my cousins birthday gathering at a place on 12th street and 2nd Ave. It was a small underground bar/lounge. We were all hanging out at the seating area talking about what girls talk about ;)...
When in walks the DJ...
Who looks like the Ex Fiance's twin.
I mean down to the sneakers he wore. They had same physical features, same stature, same style of clothes, even the same red/blonde beard. I caught myself staring and smiling a few times, and not at the guy himself... It was at what he reminded me of. There were points where it was overwhelming and too much for me to handle. I thought to myself what the fuck is wrong with me? I know what's wrong with me. I still love him very much.
It amazes me how much ONE DAY could change your life.
If I NEVER went to Dirty Disco but that day I went because Sassy Daisy's ex co worker was D.J.ing there that night, or else I would have never met the ex-fiance. I wonder how different my life would have been had we never decided to actually go that day. That DJ invited us out allllll the time and we hardly went. But that day we did...It's not like I would have met him somewhere else.

• We don't go to the same places.
• He doesn't like to go out.
• We didn't have mutual friends.
• I was never in his neighborhood nor him in mine.

I would have not known what his love was like. Although it is a love that lead to some unhealthy habits of his to come out-- it is a love I don't think many people experience.
I might be making excuses for him... but the Ex-Fiance is not a bad guy. He's just been in some shitty situations in the past that he never learned to deal with (funny, his mom was a psychologist), the timing was just not right (neither were his actions, but he is human and we fuck up).

sometimes it is good to just sit back and remember the good... sometimes.