Summers Gone By SO FAST

Starzgazr said it best- we have been slacking on our blogging... Well at least I have :-\





That's what the summer time does to me I suppose.





Another reason I have been slacking on my blogging is that I honestly don't like to blog when I am not happy and despite all the good things that have happened in the last month (stay tuned) I've had a hard time with

1. Feeling stuck due to the NYPD not hiring, it's the job I want and I have done everything in my power to make sure I got into the class that just passed and NOTHING. Thanks Bloomberg, I owe you one... No, really. psh. The only thing that has kept me positive is that the people who got in this class took the test in 2005. I took my test in 2006 so hopefully next class I AM IN.


2. Fitness and I are officially no longer together. This happened about 3 weeks ago. I am somewhat over it now lol but I don't know WHY I let the assholeish personalities get to me. He was so stern and set in his ways and not sympathetic, it reminded so much of El Difunto. Why is it that the two who are being assholes during the break ups are the ones I have a hard time getting over. It's a game I suppose and I had let them win.

Fitness and I are trying to remain friends now. He is a very distant friend. Whatever, in due time I guess. I promise I will blog about what happened another time.

I went SKYDIVING and it was one of the greatest rushes I have ever had. I never really considered myself much of a dare devil UNTIL I sky dived and listed all the things I have wanted to do in my life. Most of them are pretty risky compared to the people who surround me.

• Tattoo CHECK


• Lasik CHECK


• Sky Dive CHECK


• Boxed CHECK


• Attempted to join the military CHECK


• Semi nude pics CHECK

Ummmm okay, maybe I haven't done too much that would be considered risky.

Semi Nude pics. Please keep in mind I had a very amature photographer, I plan on doing another shoot in Sept. with a professional photographer... This photo is not one of the best ones but it didn't have my face in it, so it's the one I chose to put in here... It hasn't been edited at all except for the censored sign I have placed there myself lol.

THIS WAS A SHOT TAKEN WHILE I WAS GETTING READY FOR ANOTHER SHOT

I've been beach bumming it and just enjoying the summer. Dancing lots of salsa and putting all my bathing suits to use!

Later Bloggers!

Semi Nude Photo Shoots and God in one blog

That's right bitchessss (and I mean that with love)...

This girl right here is taking her semi nude photos on Wednesday.

It's something I've always wanted to do but never found the courage, the money, or the body wasn't right.

I am 25 and my body is as good as it is going to get unless I start to starve myself. I am 5'2 average weight 102 pounds. After a weekend of dancing I am 99 lol.

I've been letting my bush grow so I can get a Brazilian wax the day before the shoot. I can't stand hair on my body so this has been a tough one for me. I went to the beach twice this weekend and had to try to pull off a string bikini with a bush.

I went in the water and after every wave I would stand hunched over holding my crotch like a little kid that had to pee.

If the pictures come out good maybe I will block out my face and put one up. BIG MAYBE.

Love life update: Fitness and I had our first real fight this weekend... over my way of handling the possibility of wanting to move to Florida if I don't get into the NYPD academy... and this is when I realized, I care for this doof more then I thought I did.

I had been training for an agility test I HAD to pass if I wanted to even be considered for the JULY NYPD class... I had taken this test and failed it before because I hadn't been working out as hard... the people there remembered me and were so supportive. I think a few of them were trying to flirt but FUCK IT- I was too nervous to care.

As I began the test I thought I was going to take a shit in my sweats. I paced myself to make sure I didn't exhaust myself for the next stage (it was 6 stations- a 6 foot fence climb, a stairs section, pulling and pushing 80 pounds of force, a short jog, a 180 pound dummy pull, and a trigger test- shoot 16 times each hand... sounds easier then it is).

I PASSED.

I really want this. I feel cheated out of this experience, I was suppose to get in January and the mayor decided to make cuts. I have my feelings about this but I will not bad mouth political figures on my blog. I know a few people who are on the job just for the benefits, this is what I want to do, I love criminal justice. I swear, it is my calling.

Fitness tells me he prays for me everyday because he can tell- it is affecting me, the possibility of not getting in. I've cried alone at the thought. I've literally put my life on hold in hopes of getting in this class.

Pang's sorority sister tells me she is praying for me. I am flattered so many people are praying for me to get what I want. She recommends I go to church and pray too.

I haven't been to church since Sept 12, 2001.

I decide, I'M GOING TO CHURCH.

So I make my way. There are 3 big entrances.
I try one, it is locked.
I try the second one, it is locked.
I try the third one, it is locked.
I stand on the stoop of the church and stare these doors down for about one minute.
I suck my teeth, I AM GOING TO PRAY AND NO LOCKED DOORS ARE GOING TO STOP ME. I sat down on the stoop of the church, bowed my head and spoke to God... I hope he heard me over the noise of New York streets.